all that mattered were her burning eye sockets, because they were the only things that were so real that she couldn’t will them away. so she did her homework so she laughed real hard so she washed her clothes so she slept in her bed, and she made bad jokes and she made a few more and everyone around her laughed and everyone around her smiled and she smiled back and laughed at her own joke, but all she could think of were those two holes in her skull searing the flesh around them and swallowing her whole.